I am so disappointed. I got wait listed for the study abroad program I want to do, need to do, have been planning on doing, and I am upset. It is the most popular program at my school so they had to be selective I guess but why not me. Studying abroad is literally a requirement for me and this is the only type of program that is financially feasible for me and the only time period to go that really works for me and a place I really really really wanted to study in.
I am upset that I didn’t get it and stressed about making a new plan and disappointed that I didn’t already have a back-up plan and mad that someone who does not need to go and who put in much less effort than me gets to go.
I am sure something will work out because it has to but for now I am just upset.
Things have always come pretty easily for me but I have always felt that I deserved what I received. Maybe this is my time to learn what disappointment really feels like and maybe it is a good thing in the long run but right now it really fucking sucks. I have to figure this shit out so fast now, in fact during the time where I am already dealing with finals and ten zillion other things. I want to learn from this negative experience but the learning moment has come at a most inconvenient time and all I want to do is have someone tell me “surprise! you’re actually going to Granada!”